36 hours at home by Philip Tarlow

9:34 PM: way too tired to continue; more tomorrow...

we returned from denver an hour ago, just as the sun was setting, casting a warm light on crestone peak. 

i'm looking more and more deeply at vermeer and how optics influenced his paintings. my friend david hockney wrote a book about this, suggesting that vermeer was not alone in his use of optics as a visual aide. i think he's right. what interests me right now is how the camera obscura allowed him to break the image up. here you see a detail of vermeer's the art of painting.above: a detail of the crestone peak sunset shot. second row: detail of vermeer's the art of painting

BELOW: detail of my eye; right:detail of a chuck close painting

thoughts on the accidental in painting by Philip Tarlow

1:49 PM: in the emergency room waiting for the doc to see me. scroll down past pics to find out why.

10:10 AM: today is a short day, and i won't be painting. we leave around noon for denver. we'll have a relaxed afternoon in our hotel; tomorrow we have meetings related to actionlab360 and drive home in the afternoon to be back for the caucus on tuesday.

so right now i'm in my studio printing out a doc containing our actionlab360 business plan, which we'll review at the hotel, in preparation for upcoming meetings with potential investors in our company.

it's an unusual day in that it's overcast, so the light is perfect for re-shooting grey 13. the colors you see reproduced here will be truer than yesterday's pics. i decided, since i've got time, to carefully isolate some details, which you see below.

if you were to observe me, spy on me, making mikela's morning coffee, for example, you would likely conclude that i'm detail oriented; consumed by process; possibly even anal

if you were to spy on me working on my grey series, you would see a different side. the one who is in love with chinese poet/calligrapher huang tingjian (1045-1105), deKooning and other friends of the fortuitous accident. there's a lot more i want to say about this. but my head hurts; yesterday the canvas with it's heavy masonite backing fell off the easel onto my head. ron gremillion urged me to have it looked at to preclude a possible subdural hematoma, so we'll stop on the way to denver at the salida heart of the rockies hospital emergency room & get a ct scan.....it's probably nothing. more once we het to our hotel.

5:27 PM: saw the nurse in the emergency room of heart of the rockies medical center, but an ambulance pulled up and we were told we'd have to wait 2 hours to see the doc. based on the fact that my only symptom is a headache, she felt that as long as i don't have the typical subdural hematoma symptoms, i don't need to worry or have a CT scan, but to be alert for the characteristic symptoms. 

back to my thoughts on the accidental in painting: 

in the two examples i gave: huang tingjian (1045-1105) and deKooning, accidental may not be the most accurate word. of course there was nothing accidental in huang's calligraphy. what sets him apart are his painterly, gestural marks. he varied them based upon how he was feeling in the moment and the meaning of the word or letter he was depicting. you get the sense his whole body was engaged. in one case, in order to emphasize an important point, he made the first letter of a word the entire height of the page. 

deKooning   woman V  1952-3

as for deKooning, he was the archetypal action painter. drips, scumbles, scraping were all part of his process, in which his entire body was engaged. but, as an artist who was classically trained in rotterdam, where he was born, there is always an element of refined, masterful draftsmanship underlying all the wild drips, slashes and scrapes. friends and admirers who saw a painting in process would urge him to leave it alone and not paint over it. not a chance. he painted over many gorgeous surfaces until he felt the painting was resolved. one story i love about deKooning has to do with how bits of newspaper ended up in his paintings. he liked to work wet into wet, so he started pressing newspaper pages onto the wet paint so that when he started working the next day, he could peel them off & work into the still wet oil paint. one day, he decided he like the look of the newspaper in the overall composition, so he left it. 

in both of these examples, there is a balance of fortuitous accident and wild abandon resting on a foundation of classical training. i feel that my years in greece, where i learned from my friend and mentor yannis tsarouchis, and received the benefits of his deep understanding of the byzantine tradition, were my version of classical training.

my experience in nyc, before leaving for greece exposed me to the tail end of the abstract expressionist movement. i met some of the major players and absorbed their energy. that would be my last experience of art in america before my 15 years in greece.

three or four years ago, i launched in to series of abstract paintings based upon plein air studies i had made at a nearby creek. it was a huge release. it was energizing and it was fun. but pure abstraction wasn't me. as soon as vermeer, one of my great heroes and a master of what might be called abstract realism, entered the picture, he became a point of reference for me to get wild and messy while still rooted in my classical training. that's all i have to say about that right now.

oh-h-h-h- boy! by Philip Tarlow

6:51 PM:  so we took our walk, made our bernie calls & are watching a little t.v. as i review today's work in the studio, 

2:30 PM: stopping for the day. here are 3 stages grey 13 went through today. stages 1-2-3, below left to right.

we're driving to denver tomorrow, then back for the 3/1 caucus; then to edwards to work more with the teachers & kids who are now implementing our product, actionlab360, in creating their projects, which they'll present in may. so i'll have over a weeks break before getting back to work on grey 13.

12:32 PM: making the drawing

the blank canvas

 

 

 

 

 

 

11:37 AM: i am SO excited.....the next 3-6 months should prove to be perhaps the most fruitful of my life as an artist. without revealing too much...i'm a little superstitious about that...i can say that it will involve a continuation of the grey/vermeer series. i'm about to begin the drawing for the one; grey 13. pics as they become available.

BELOW: examining the image i'll be working from

preparing for grey 13 / re-shooting grey 11 by Philip Tarlow

5PM: we came back for our walk & i too another look at grey 11, hanging on the west wall of our living room. i realized that the pics i posted of this painting on my grey page and my home page were too cool. the colors are, in person, a lot warmer. here's a more accurate version, which i just now substituted on those two pages.

 

 

 

 

10AM: this morning i'm un-stretching grey 11 so i can re-stretch a fresh canvas and start working on grey 13. i might be able get started today if i work quickly.

i'm still pondering the image, but it will definitely be a vermeer inspired face that fills the picture plane.

scrumbling "grey 12" by Philip Tarlow

2:30 PM: one final critical tweak before leaving for our walk. BELOW:  before the tweak, left & after, right.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

2 PM: a tad frizzled and be-dozzled, i'm done for the day. done painting that is. we'll walk up the trail, followed by a land trust meeting, followed by an hour of bernie calls, which we're committed to right up to the nomination and then the election.

 

i introduced more collaged elements, including a bit of francis bacon and a map. it was getting boring & needed a kick in the pants. BELOW left: the current state, and on the right, a detail.

 

 

 

 

 

 

12 PM: here are stages 1 & 2 of my work on "grey 12" this morning. there's a fork in the road here; let's see where it leads....

10:35 AM:  

scrumbling: 

a word i made up to describe the process of loosly applying a wash of off white to the entire surface, and then scraping/rubbing/dragging the palette knife over the surface while it's still wet, then painting back into it. the eye, rather than getting stuck on the details, such as lips, eye or hat, moves smoothly across the picture plane. there is more choice, more freedom on the part of the viewer to alight here or there. the mind/eye fills in suggested details as it fabricates it's own meanings. one has the capacity to dream more easily, while at the same time being able to notice and appreciate the painterly passages as painterliness.

re-visiting "grey 11" by Philip Tarlow

1:41 PM we have a bernie meeting soon, so i'm stopping here for the day. as i mentioned a few days ago, i didn't feel grey 11 was fully resolved, so now that grey 12 is complete, i took 11 off the wall in our house and began working on it at about 9:30 this morning. here you see 6 stages it went through, starting with the version we had hanging in the house. i'll see in the morning if more is needed.

what to do.....just dive back in & allow it to happen by Philip Tarlow

2 PM: here's a look at the process of grey 12 since this morning. i'm stopping here for the day. i think i'll bring it over to the house so we can look at it tonight & in the morning to evaluate. i made some tweaks in the last half hour that i think makes it "sing." 

but now i'm listening to woody guthrie singing songs for kids; very enlivening!

9:57 AM: first glance indicates this one needs more work. so i'm about to get to work. we got a couple of inches of new snow last night & the temps took a nose dive. it'll warm back up in a couple of days.

this is one of my favorite brushes. made in italy (i love practically anything made in italy) it does a fantastic job in certain situations where i need to cover the entire surface quickly.

pics of today's process when available.

continuing work on grey 12 by Philip Tarlow

noon: i enter the zone, then reach a point where i kind of wake up & come out of it and then that's it; i can't do any more & have to wait till the next morning. so i've reached that point now. it's convenient because it's rapidly clouding over & the light is fading. we're expecting 2-4 inches of new snow tonight, after over a week of unseasonably warm temps in the mid-50's. 

an interesting thing happened a while ago: mikela came over to make a bernie related call. she had to use my cell phone, which i have here & which gets much better reception than at the house. at first, i read that as a distraction. as the call went on, i had a faint awareness that it was keeping me out of my head, and was a good thing. however you look at it, creativity is a fucking mystery!!

after bringing grey 12 to this point, it's tempting to re-visit grey 11, which i think i could take further. i'll see in the morning. it no longer has the hard masonite backing to facilitate collaging, so i would have to forego that, unless i want to un-stretch & re-stretch again, which is a big pain in the ass. i guess that's why some artists have assistants! the removal of staples and the stretching process are very hard on my right forearm, where i have work-related tendonitis.

11:58 AM: 4 stages that grey 12 went through this morning. i was unusually good about stopping frequently to shoot the latest version. the earliest is on the upper left....

10:54 AM: working on it; about to transfer to the easel.

 

 

 

 

 

9:38 AM: this painting will undergo significant changes today. i can't wait to begin!!!!!!! pics as they become available.

clarifying confusion re:grey 10 / grey 12 begins by Philip Tarlow

2:30 PM: small changes: some pinks were introduced to the face, and i'm stopping for the day, to be continued tomorrow morning. we're going to walk up north crestone creek trail, then come home & make our bernie calls. we each do about an hour a day, leading up to the caucus march 1.

 

 

 

 

 

 

12:20 PM: here's stage 3 of grey 12. collaged elements have been introduced and painted over with sennelier phthalo blue acrylic. it's occurring to me, and i've had this thought before, that i'd like to do a series, with all the major stages of a painting. so, for example, i'd stop here and start a new one, which i'd take a bit further, then start another one, etc. cool, don't you think? i think 6 would be good. so i'd need 6 canvases stretched over masonite for collage support. and that, my friends, is one of the values of keeping a blog. it's like you're in conversation with yourself, but you know others are following. SO cool!!

11:13 AM: stages 1 & 2 of grey 12. stage one is a riff on huang tingjian's (1045-1105 AD) biographies of lian po and lin xiangru. huang was a poet/calligrapger. he shared the view of his contemporary su shi that calligraphy should be spontaneous and self expressive...."a picture of the mind." 

in stage 2, a drawing in soft water soluable aguarelável, based upon vermeer's girl with the pearl earring,  appears

nest stop: collages pieces consisting of maps, old articles, cut pieces of white & brown paper in biomorphic shapes, etc.

 

9:19 AM: a friend was somewhat confused about the progression of what eventually became grey 10. so here's what i wrote her, with the following pics:

Here's the final version of Grey 10, based on The girl with the Red Hat.On Feb. 14 it was "The Love Letter." I was frustrated with this version because the elements on the left & rightof the doorway seemed like filler,  rather than an integral part of the composition. So I got radical & painted over it,and it became another variation of The Girl in the Red Hat.

That said, I'm still a bit regretful to have lost the part of that Love Letter painting you see in the detail I've attached It is, I think, a beautiful passage. But, as Bob Dylan said when someone asked him about his label asked him to changea line in one of his songs, "sure, I've got a million of them!" (this from a musician friend in LA, who was present when this happened.

9:31 AM: heading to the studio after i meditate to begin grey 12. i'm truckin'

scrumble-it day....scrumble cancelled! why?? by Philip Tarlow

grey 11 38x38"  mixed media on canvas. this is how the painting looks right now; i've decided to do no further work on it..............

11:16 AM: when i entered my studio this morning, i knew grey 11 was an exception. sure, it would gain some of the mystery and painterly qualities of grey 10, and probably make a cool companion piece. but that's not enough. i approached the 38x38" canvas, sitting on my easel, and studied some of the details, like the one you see here, with the faint image of a reproduction of francis bacon's painting of the pope.

do i, i asked myself, really want to permanently disappear these elements of the painting/collage by painting over them, scraping, etc? i at least have to give it a chance. so, because i'm out of 38" stretcher bars, i'll have to do some un-stretching & re-stretching, so that i can take grey 11 off it's masonite-backed stretcher bar, re-stretch it on one without backing & bring it to the house so we can live with it for a few days or weeks and i can make my final decision.

this is what i would call a mature decision. considering i'm prone to quick, sometimes foolhardy decisions when it comes to my work, i give myself a pat on the back today for modifying that tendency.

8:59 AM: i'll head to my studio in about an hour and begin the process i've christened scrobbling, which i love. it allows for the random and concrete to merge in a beautifully messy way. here's an example: a detail from grey 10, 38x38,"my most recent completed grey series painting.

from a january blog post:

*scrumbling: a word i made up to describe the process of loosly applying a wash of off white to the entire surface, and then scraping/rubbing/dragging the palette knife over the surface while it's still wet, then painting back into it. the eye, rather than getting stuck on the details, such as her lips or hat, moves smoothly across the picture plane. there is more choice, more freedom on the part of the viewer to alight here or there. the mind/eye fills in suggested details as it fabricates it's own meanings. one has the capacity to dream more easily, while at the same time being able to notice and appreciate the painterly passages as painterliness.